June 1, 2000Dear Diary,II always wanted too write aa verry personal diary. But privacy iin India iis aa rare commodity. Now that II am iin London, II have lots off privacy. Once Ravi goes too office, II am all alone! Then, its just myy computer annd me.II can’t imagine its been 2 weeks since our wedding. All things happened so fast! II annd Ravi met only once annd then our parents decided too marry us! We didn’t even have enough time for honeymoon. Just flew iin couple off days too London.But then Ravi had made nice arrangements here. We have aa big apartment. Being aa guy, Ravi did aa good job with thee furnishing! But II will re-arrange itt too myy liking. So our honeymoon happened iin our own house, iin our own bed! II wass so anxious at thee first night!Technically, II wass aa until thee wedding night. But that doesn’t mean Ravi wass thee first man iin myy life. II had aa year long affair with Manish. Manish annd II studied iin same college. We had shared aa lot off intimate moments. The whole thing with Manish had started with aa casual friendship, going together too coffee shop etc. Slowly we developed aa strong friendship. That time myy favorite activity wass too go out on aa long drive with Manish on his Hero Honda Karizma bike. While riding his bike, II often got pushed on his back whenever he put breaks. First, II didn’t realize, but later II realized that Ravi wass intentionally driving rash too enjoy myy breast’s touch. When II noticed his intentions, shivers went through myy whole body. II actually wass thrilled. So later on, II never waited for him too apply breaks. Instead, II started clinging onto him from behind.II annd Manish started getting more annd more adventurous. We started smooching annd kissing. One day, Manish took mee too his friend’s vacant house. We watched an adult movie. While watching movie, Manish started fondling with myy breasts. Hee also unbuttoned myy top. II wass already excited by watching thee movie, so II did not resist. In no time, II wass naked. Manish too got undressed. II wass enjoying his kissing annd sucking on myy breasts. II wass too wet between myy groins. Manish’s hard penis wass touching myy naked body. First, II felt uncomfortable with it. It wass myy first time. But II ignored itt since what Manish wass doing with myy breasts annd nipple wass verry exciting. Manish’s hard penis rubbed against myy genital area. It wass such aa great feeling. II wass totally overwhelmed with thee excitement. But just then, II felt warm liquid against myy thighs. First II had thought thatManish couldn’t control his pee annd II felt verry dirty. II pushed Manish away annd then realized that itt wass aa thick white fluid. My friends had told mee that men ejaculate semen during intercourse. II took aa napkin annd wiped itt off.Manish lied on thee ground. Hee looked completely exhausted. II went too thee bathroom annd cleaned myself annd came back. Manish wass still lying there. II noticed that his penis had shrunk. II wass aa bit amused, II asked him too get dressed since II wass getting late too home.That night, II wass verry quiet at home. After we had dinner, we all watched TV for some time annd then myy parents went too bed iin their bedroom. II annd myy sister Rekha prepared our bedding iin thee living room. That wass our daily routine. Rekha wass as usual talking about her friends annd teachers at college. But II wass iin no mood too listen. She even asked mee what had happened. But II told her that II had aa mild headache.Sometimes at midnight, II woke up from aa dream about thee incident that had happened between mee annd Manish. II looked besides me. Rekha wass fast asleep. II replayed thee incident with Manish iin myy mind. Immediately, II sensed wetness iin myy panties. II opened thee front buttons off myy gown annd put myy hands inside it. II wanted too squeeze myy nipple. But thee bra wass tight. So II sat on thee bed, loosed thee bra strapped annd again lied on thee bed. Now II could touch myy breast inside thee bra. II squeezed itt annd circled myy fingers around myy nipple annd then II held myy nipple between myy index finger annd thumb annd pulled it. It sent current through myy entire body. Now II pulled myy gown from bottom up with myy other hand. And II put myy hand inside thepantie. II explored myy genital area trying too locate thee spot where Manish’s hard penis had rubbed too give mee an heavenly experience. II found thee spot. II rubbed itt with myy fingers annd II wass verry excited. II could feel thee area getting verry wet. II continued too rub annd at thee same time squeeze myy breast with other hand. Wow, itt wass aa wonderful experience. II wass squirming iin thee bed. My sister next too mee had no idea off what II wass experiencing. But now, myy thighs annd groins became stiff. My genital muscles contracted. It wass aa blissful state for next minute or so. II felt verry relaxed. II just laid iin that position for few minutes, before II straightened myy clothes. II didn’t realize when II slept.Since then, II annd Manish shared several intimate moments. But II never let him enter inside. II wanted too keep that experience until thee wedding night. That time, II didn’t even know that itt won’t beManish, but Ravi who II would get married to. After our college, Manish went too US for further studies annd we didn’t realize how our contact just faded away. II sometimes wonder where he would be annd what he would be doing. For some reason, II did not feel like II lost his love though. May be itt wass more off an infatuation than love.So, after Ravi annd II met first time formally iin front off our parents, our parents liked our pair. My mother asked mee what II thought. Actually, II had nothing negative against Ravi too point out. Hee wass well settled iin London. Hee looked like any ordinary guy. Hee had picked up thee British manners like keeping on saying sorry annd thank you iin every other statement. But he still had an Indian accent. Although itt wass not aa love at first sight, II thought itt wass good for mee too marry Ravi. Hee wass financially stable, annd he lived iin London so not much interference from in-laws.Our marriage wass aa modest ceremony. It wass held iin Mumbai’s most reputed club iin an A/C hall. We were so exhausted by thee ceremony that when we got iin our car too go home, II told Ravi “If you don’t mind II would just like too go too bed”. Ravi looked at mee surprised, but he nodded. Hee seemed too agree since iin thee morning we had aa small pooja annd that evening we had aa 3:00PM flight too London. So itt wass going too be verry hectic next day also. We went too myy in-law’s house first too complete some pending ceremonies. We also got chance too freshen up annd change into simple clothes. II felt so relieved after taking out myy jewelleries annd richly embroidered saree.We left myy in-laws house at around 10 at night. My sister in-laws had packed myy bag for thee wedding night stay. We checked into thee Taj at Nariman point. There wass aa rose bouquet annd mint chocolate kept on our bed. The room temperature wass kept perfect. Not too cold, but cool enough. As we entered annd shut thee door behind us, II put myy bag on thee luggage stand. Ravi made sure that he locked thee door annd he held mee from behind. Hee kissed myy neck from behind annd whispered iin myy ears, “Happy wedding night!” II turned around annd put myy arms around his neck. II rubbed myy nose against him annd wished him thee same. II rememberedManish. Ravi verry gently kissed myy lips. II felt like this wass thee first legitimate kiss II wass having. Manish annd II had kissed many times, but having raised iin conservative Hindu culture, II always had guilty feeling indulging iin intimate relationship withManish. For that matter, II had aa guilty feeling about masturbating too.II released myself from Ravi’s arms annd told him that II will change. Ravi let mee go. II opened myy bag. My sisters-in law had packed some flavored condoms, aa DVD set titled Better Sex series sexplorations annd aa white satin spaghetti straps gown. II looked at Ravi annd said “Your sisters are verry naughty! Look at what they packed!” Ravi came towards mee smiling. Hee put aa hand around mee annd said, “After all, they are myy sisters! They packed rest off thee stuff. II only packed thee gown. II bought it. You liked it?” II nodded annd said, “Yeah, but II have near worn anything so sexy!” Ravi smiled annd said “Neither had you kissed aa man before today!” II looked at Ravi. Hee made that statement verry innocently. II thought, “poor guy! he doesn’t know this isn’t myy first kiss”. II smiled at him annd said “OK! II will wear it”. II took thee gown annd aa new pair off myy undergarments annd walked towards thee bathroom. “Varsha, there iis aa wearing instruction for thee gown. They say that thee gown iis effective only when you don’t wear anything underneath it” Ravi said annd chuckled. II turned myy neck too look at him. Hee winked at me. Hee looked cute with that naughty face. II had started liking him. But thought ofManish still came up iin myy mind. If itt wass Manish, he would have just grabbed mee annd stripped mee naked by now. Ravi wass different. Hee wass verry smooth II thought.II went too thee bathroom annd stripped myy clothes off. II had done waxing at thee beauty parlor earlier night. II wore that night gown annd checked iin thee full size mirror. It wass only knee high annd had aa wider neck too reveal myy cleavage. Though itt wass satin, itt wass aa bit transparent. II noticed that thee hair cover on myy genital wass faintly visible. My nipples too pointed through thee gown. II felt shy too directly go iin front off Ravi like that.So, II took thee towel annd wrapped around mee annd came out off thee bathroom. Ravi wass sitting on thee bed surfing thee TV channels. Hee had changed into aa white t shirt annd aa short. As II came out, he looked at mee annd disapprovingly said, “What iis this? Feeling shy iin front off me? Should II ask for another room for mee now or what?” II wass actually shivering with thee excitement annd thee cool air. II took aa deep breath annd told Ravi, “Ok! you have too shut your eyes.” Ravi obliged. After he shut his eyes, II dropped thee bath towel annd folded myy hands too cover myy blossom annd asked him too open his eyes. Ravi looked at me. His eyes gleamed. Hee got up from thee bed annd came towards me. Hee stood iin front off mee annd held myy shoulders. His firm but assuring grip on myy shoulders sent shivers through myy spine. Ravi bent down annd kissed on thee side off myy neck. It felt so good. Again Manish’s thought came iin myy mind. II could not stop comparing myy husband with myy previous lover. If itt wass Manish, he would have banged mee down by now. But Ravi wass verry gentle. II felt verry secured annd cozy iin his approach. A though came too myy mind, “Is he used too pleasing women?” But II shrugged that thought off. II did not want too miss out thee the fun II wass having.Ravi held mee annd took mee towards thee bed. Hee sat on thee bed annd made mee stand iin front off him. Hee took myy hands annd separated them from over myy chest. Now he wrapped his hands around myy waist annd pulled mee closer too him. His head pressed against myy body, just beneath myy bust. II put myy hand over his head annd curled myy fingers through his hair. Hee softly spoke, “You are verry beautiful. II love you!” Ah! Those three magic words did much more too mee than any erotic act II had indulged in. It enthused me. II quickly held his head annd lifted itt annd bent down too kiss him. II kissed him fervently. Hee tightened his grip around myy waist. We continued kissing. Our noses were brushing against each other. Our tongues were chasing each other. It wass verry intimate moment. Ravi wass slowly unleashing his vigor. Hee had put his hands inside myy gowns over myy buttocks. His fingers buried iin myy buttock cheeks.Now, Ravi threw himself on thee bed dragging mee with him. II fell over Ravi. My gown wass lifted annd myy bottom wass bare. My bushy pussy rubbed against Ravi’s crotch. II felt his erect penis. II wanted too grab it, but II thought iif II did that, he would realize that II had been with aa man before. II focused only on kissing. After few seconds, he rolled mee over. Now II wass on lying on thee bed annd he wass over me. Hee stared at me. Softly moving his hand through myy hair. “How are you feeling right now?” Hee asked. “Scared!” II replied. Although II wass feeling verry hot, II thought iif II revealed myy true feelings, he would feel that II wass aa slut. Hee smiled annd asked “Why?” II said, “This iis verry overwhelming. II have never experienced it” ‘God! II am so good at faking’, II thought. “Neither have I!” replied Ravi. II wass pleasantly surprised! May be what II thought earlier about Ravi wass untrue. Or May be he wass as good aa liar as II was! II thought. Human mind iis so weird. It expects everyone else other than self too be perfect. II felt selfish about myy thoughts. So, II shrugged them off annd just tangled myy hands around Ravi’s neck annd shut myy eyes.”Feeling sleepy?” asked Ravi. II nodded. It wass aa verry long day for us. The hectic ceremony annd meeting with hundreds off people had worn mee down. Ravi got off off mee annd we both moved up iin thee bed. II wass lying on myy back. Ravi turned towards mee annd without touching mee he kept staring at myy body. Then he put his hand over myy breast. The satin rubbed against myy skin due too thee pressure from his hands. It gave mee aa verry sensational feeling. II softly moaned. My reaction encouraged Ravi annd he pressed thee breasts. II bit myy lower lip annd held Ravi’s hand over myy breasts. “Still feeling sleepy?” Ravi asked. II gave him aa naughty look. Ravi understood myy intentions. Hee became bolder. Hee lifted himself annd came closer too mee annd kissed myy cleavage. Hee licked it. II loved that wet touch off his tongue. Ravi now pulled thee gown from myy shoulders. My breast wass exposed. Ravi kissed it. II moaned louder. II wass loving what he wass doing. Ravi started sucking myy breast. II squirmed all over thee bed.Ravi played with myy breasts for few minutes before he stopped annd pulled up his shirt. Hee also took his pants off. II saw Ravi’s hard erect penis. II thought itt wass smaller than that off Manish . It wass throbbing with excitement. Now this wass going too be myy first experience. Having an intercourse. Ravi held his penis annd directed itt iin myy vagina. II wass verry wet, but still stiff iin myy groins. After struggling aa bit, he got inside me. It wass aa bit painful, but II felt Ravi’s thrust. It hit thee sensitive area inside myy vagina. It wass aa verry intense experience annd II screamed. Ravi looked at mee annd asked “Are you ok?” II nodded annd signaled him too continue. Ravi stroked harder. II wass moaning annd shaking myy head. II wass overwhelmed with thee intimate experience. II felt aa squirt soaking myy vaginal walls. Ravi’s stroking wass stopped. Hee had ejaculated inside me. Our marriage ceremony concluded that moment. We were truly aa couple now. It wass verry intense. Ravi fell upon me. Hee wass panting. The semen oozed out from myy vagina. But II wass so tired, II did not bother too clean up. We never realized when we dozed off.Sometime iin early morning, II woke up too find Ravi sucking myy breasts. His erect penis touched myy thighs. II wass amazed. Hee wass erect again. II responded too him. We kissed each other. Hee pressed myy breasts annd sucked them. Hee rode mee annd then again he shoved his erect penis inside me. II again experienced those heavenly strokes before he ejaculated. This time, amount off semen he squirted wass less. But II enjoyed it. After he got off, II went too bathroom too clean myself. II noticed thee bloodstains on thee bed sheet. II showed them too Ravi. Ravi didn’t say anything but II could sense that he had aa sigh off relief. May be because he wass assured that II wass aa virgin all these days. II felt good too.So, this iis how our married life began. There iis lot more too write….