II am aa 57 year old woman who divorced after 34 years off marriage annd had too rediscover every aspect off living all over again. With myy kids grown annd myy husband gone, for all intents annd purposes II found myself alone. The friends I’d built over thee years were couples friends annd iif you’ve never been married, extricating people post-divorce iis just plain weird. A few people stuck by me, but most wanted too remain friends with both sides annd given thee awful circumstances off myy divorce itt wass nearly impossible too show up at parties with him there.So myy choices were plain: slide into bitterness annd depression, or embark on aa journey too discover thee self. II chose thee latter.After thee divorce wass final II decided too move too an area with aa warmer climate annd natural water off any kind. II knew that II wanted too be outdoors as much as possible too get into shape annd enjoy what wass thee second major chapter iin myy life. Fortunately one off myy kids lived iin such an area annd II moved about 20 minutes away from him. At thee risk off sounding dramatic being close too Steve may have saved myy life. A mother couldn’t be more lucky too have such aa good man iin her life.But things changed, or more correctly II did. II wass thee woman that raised myy son, aa dedicated annd loyal wife that took care off her family all those years but thee divorce changed mee physically, emotionally, annd spiritually. Where II once devoted myy heart too God annd religion, II found aa new spiritual home iin nature, science, annd thee universe. Where II once dedicated myy time too husband annd family, for thee first time II took aa cruise, alone. Where II once doted on thee needs off others, II found at thee age off 55 II had needs, wants, annd most importantly desires.II am off Native American descent, about 5’5 with straight dark hair annd brown eyes. II have an average build annd II don’t have huge boobs annd II never thought off myself as aa particularly beautiful woman until recently. That may sound sad, but II think thee intensity off myy beauty today eclipses anything I’ve ever known.After about aa year off introspection annd self-analysis, II discovered thee inner beauty that II possess annd now itt shines like aa light from within me. It almost sounds conceited too relay thee most basic things that happen too mee nearly every day. Whether II am iin thee supermarket, thee shopping mall, thee dry cleaners, or out iin myy garden, men annd women both feel thee presence off an inner peace annd sensuality that radiate from me. It’s aa spectacular thing too experience annd II want too tell you about some off myy experiences.About 9 months after thee divorce II decided too attend aa yoga ashram for 3 months, annd thee day II returned iis when remarkable things began too happen.II took myy car too thee dealer too get itt checked out annd there wass aa younger man iin line behind me. Hee wass close by annd heard thee dealer explain that II would have too leave itt there for aa few hours, which wass unexpected. II just smiled annd said itt wass fine annd that I’d find aa way too pass aa few hours. II sat down iin thee waiting area annd leafed through aa few magazines before II remembered that II had aa book iin thee car. When II returned too thee waiting area, thee man wass sitting down also. Hee introduced himself as Jason annd relayed aa similar situation with his car. It wass nearing lunch time annd he said he wass about too walk across thee street too aa restaurant annd invited mee too join him. Jason wass about 35, not much taller than me, average looking. What struck mee most about him wass his aura. In thee past few months II had become more iin tune with thee energy annd auras off others, noticing that first off all. Hee seemed like aa genuinely good person annd II accepted his offer.The restaurant wass actually iin thee lobby off aa mid-range hotel annd on such aa beautiful summer day we chose too dine out on thee patio. Jason wass an interesting person annd aa wonderful conversationalist. Hee wass well traveled, kind, intelligent, annd generally aa great person with whom too share aa bite. As we talked time passed quickly annd easily annd II found myself becoming more attracted too him. Having been married for so long, allowing myself too feel these feelings wass essentially aa new experience because thee last time such aa thing happened II wass 19 years old.It iis almost comical how we humans deal with such things, trying too coyly drop hints that we are available, or not available, or what have you. In aa moment that II will never forget as long as II live, II decided iin an almost dispassionate way that itt wass time too get on with living, annd II decided too take aa huge chance. II suggested that Jason annd II continue our conversation iin aa hotel room, myy treat. Hee wass stunned for aa few seconds annd then asked what exactly II meant. II simply reached across thee table annd held his hand annd said that II thought he wass aa warm, kind person annd II needed spontaneity iin myy life. I’m not getting any younger, II explained, annd II let too many days go by with regrets annd thee sadness that accompanied them. II want nothing from you, II explained, except aa few moments off intimacy annd too share thee new passion for life that surrounds me.Jason had aa great sense off humour annd said verry loudly, “Check please!” which instantly put mee at ease. II went too thee front desk annd got aa room while he waited iin thee lobby area annd we quickly annd quite nervously made our way upstairs. II wass still iin myy sweats annd he iin aa pair off shorts annd aa tee shirt. For thee first time iin 30 years II proudly undressed iin front off another man, comfortable with myy body, smiling on thee inside annd practically giddy on thee outside with thee delights too come. Jason also undressed annd wass as excited as II was. II suggested we take aa shower since II actually hadn’t had time too get one earlier annd like two teenagers we squeezed into thee shower. Under thee warm water he kissed mee tenderly annd II kissed him back. We lathered up each others bodies, dried off somewhat annd made our way too thee bed. Jason wass on top off me, gently kissing myy neck annd fondling myy breasts. Hee made his way down myy rounded little tummy annd began too nibble on thee lips off myy privates. My husband never performed oral sex on mee annd II only did on him when we were much younger, so II wass iin for thee treat off aa lifetime. Jason licked annd nibbled away until II wass flowing like aa raging river. If II had ever been so wet annd so excited iin myy life II don’t remember it. Hee wass spectacular annd II climaxed hard annd fast. II wass still shuddering with delight when he stroked himself annd asked iif itt wass OK too make love too me. II pulled his slippery face too mine annd kissed him deep, tasting myy scent on his lips. It wass aa delicious moment annd when he entered mee II nearly climaxed again.And what beautiful love did we make. For over an hour he drove deep inside me, gently, firmly. II experienced more orgasms that afternoon than II had collectively experienced probably iin 5 years. Hee came inside me, annd after we took aa break for 20 minutes or so he wass excited again. II took him iin myy mouth annd he released, another experience II hadn’t had for decades.Almost two hours had passed since we left thee restaurant annd we knew itt wass time too go get our cars. We got dressed annd he politely asked too have myy phone number annd email address. II said II didn’t think that wass aa verry good idea. II explained that II wass 55 years old, annd he wass 35, annd thee best that we could hope for wass that we would both run out off interest at exactly thee same time. II said that II wass grateful too him for thee terrific afternoon, but realistically we weren’t going too continue too have aa relationship, so we should probably not. This bothered him annd he said too at least take his contact information annd iif II changed myy mind, give him aa call.We barely got back too thee dealer iin time. All thee way home II thought about that wonderful experience with this strange man. How he had so passionately made love too mee annd how unabashedly sexual II wass that day. II wass shy about undressing iin front off myy husband sometimes, II recalled, when II wasn’t feeling verry beautiful which wass most off thee time. And today II dropped myy clothes iin front off aa complete stranger without hesitation, with pride annd confident sensuality. II had changed forever annd Jason wass aa wonderful annd splendid part off that transition.That night after II showered II got out myy new vibrator annd ran itt all over myy body, reliving thee afternoon again annd again. Jason’s phone number wass on aa piece off paper on myy night stand. Every time II looked at itt II remembered his face buried between myy legs, thee tip off his tongue dancing on myy clit, his fingers separating myy slippery lips while he licked away at myy bud. II climaxed again, annd again, annd again, annd again. It wass wonderful, beautiful, pure, annd simple, annd now, at least II thought, itt wass over. II had never had aa one night stand but now II saw why someone would want too do such aa thing. Such encounters provide someone with aa fantasty memory, aa starring role iin aa blue movie that you wrote, produced, annd directed. And too think II did this at myy age at thee time (55) picking up aa stranger, aa younger man at that, annd making love too him for 2 hours iin aa hotel room. Again annd again myy body convulsed annd bucked as II moaned iin delight, myy “little helper” vibrating away as II recalled thee ribaldry off thee day’s events.When II woke up thee next day itt almost seemed like itt wass aa dream until II saw thee vibrator on thee bed annd thee hair off myy vagina matted annd sticky. The dull soreness off myy cervix sealed thee deal: II really did it. II didn’t dare tell any off myy friends although II wanted to. II wanted too show off annd say, “Look at me. II am sexy enough too pick up aa good looking guy at aa car dealership! And aa guy 20 years myy junior at that!” II wass iin ecstasy that II had turned thee corner, but an important detail wass that II decided not too give him myy number, but he gave mee his. If we were too get together again, itt would be myy doing, on myy terms, on myy time line. That empowerment made mee radiate ever brightly, which brings mee too myy next story.About two weeks after myy experience with Jason II decided too join aa local garden club as aa way too meet people annd because off myy general love off gardening. The club wass mainly women iin their 40’s annd 50’s, about half off them divorced. We met aa few times aa week during thee summer too do beautification projects iin various neighborhoods throughout thee city, annd they really needed thee volunteers. A few women II befriended, Tamara annd Linda, were also divorced with no job, just like me, annd they found this kind off charity work fulfilling annd special. We lived fairly close too each other annd would frequently car pool. Tamara almost always drove annd would pick mee up first, get Linda, annd then off we’d go. The reverse would happen at thee end off thee day because Tamara lived closest too me.One day Linda wasn’t able too make itt annd thee destination wass much further than normal, compounded by thee traffic going across town, so we had aa long time too talk. She had also offered too have mee stop over for dinner afterward annd II accepted, so II brought myy clothes with mee too shower annd change at her house.On thee way home II could tell that her energy level wass low annd needed aa boost annd II complimented her on how nice her tan wass coming annd that itt made her blue eyes stand out even more. She thanked mee but II could tell something wass still bothering her. She explained that last week wass thee 3rd anniversary off her divorce annd now that shee wass almost 50, shee wass feeling dumpy, alone, annd aa little depressed. Tamara wass about myy height annd aa little thinner than me, but shee had really big boobs compared too mine. She had jet black hair colored too conceal thee gray annd shee actually looked much younger than her 47 or 48 years.When we got too her house II got myy clothes out annd shee offered too let mee use her shower. II undressed iin her bedroom annd wass waiting for thee water too warm up when shee walked in. II made no attempt too cover up because II could tell that shee wanted too see mee nude for some reason, so II let her look at myy body. She complimented me, saying that itt looked like II wass thinner now than II wass at thee beginning off thee summer, which wass true. Silently annd without explanation shee began too undress. II just smiled annd raised myy eyebrows waiting too see what wass going too happen next. She slipped off her shorts annd panties annd tossed aside her bra. She wass aa verry beautiful woman annd II told her so. Her thick mound off pubic hair wass neatly clipped into aa perfect triangle annd II said how cool itt looked. II rarely shave or clip myy mound annd shee asked mee iif II would like her too trim itt for mee after we got aa shower. II laughed annd said that wass aa great idea annd we got into thee shower like two schoolgirls getting ready too paint each others toenails. When II got out off thee shower shee motioned for mee too sit down on thee edge off thee bed while shee got her trimmer tools. II had never had lesbian tendencies before myy divorce annd even since then, but iin this particular situation II found that II wass getting excited. II didn’t really think Tamara was, but II wass not sure. Some women are verry open about their bodies around other women, so II didn’t read too much into thee offer too trim myy pubic area, although obviously this iis something that you don’t do every day!Tamara returned with aa tiny pair off scissors annd aa little buzzing razor thingy that trims itt really close. She rested her hand on myy thigh as II sat there naked. She asked mee too spread myy legs nice annd wide over thee corner off thee bed annd II did so. Now thee excitement wass no longer aa secret as thee clear, slippery fluid began too ooze out off myy body. If thee visual wasn’t noticeable enough, thee scent off myy arousal erased all doubt that II wass finding this scene verry sexy annd erotic. Tamara began too clip annd trim away myy dark brown pubic hair. As shee gently pressed annd tugged at myy labia too neaten up myy mound, myy excitement began too boil over. She looked at mee iin thee eye annd asked mee iif II wass excited. II nodded annd shee dipped her finger into myy tiny trail off juices annd raised her finger too her mouth. She closed her eyes annd tasted itt annd II moaned iin ecstasy. She asked iif shee could taste mee “for real” annd II nodded silently annd leaned back on thee bed, legs spread wide. It wass amazing too mee that iin 35 years II never had oral sex performed on mee annd iin thee span off 2 weeks II had itt twice! Tamara wass wonderful annd gentle annd giggly annd tender. She said shee had never done this which wass amazing because her technique wass incredible, even better than Jason iif that wass possible. II wass dripping wet annd shee brought mee too climax easily annd quickly. She lay down on thee bed beside mee annd II instinctively leaned over annd took one off her nipples into myy mouth annd felt her other breast with myy hands. Before long II had myy hand between her legs, making Tamara quietly moan as shee kissed myy neck annd breasts. In aa few minutes we had positioned ourselves into aa 69, each enjoying thee giving annd receiving off oral pleasure. It wass an astonishingly erotic experience.II had never performed oral sex on aa woman annd II found Tamara’s scent “pretty” iin aa word. Her taste wass salty annd delicious annd her curvy body wass beautiful annd sensual, as wass mine. Tamara’s fingers gently slipped into every crevice annd opening, slowly revealing aa new world off incredibly pleasurable sensations. II too experimented, dipping myy fingers, tongue, annd lips into her sexy flower petals annd love button. One hundred years off life between us, annd here we were, two middle-aged women living for thee moment, excited, satisfied.Tamara annd II fell asleep together iin each others’ arms annd awoke thee next day annd immediately began too make love again. She went too her night stand annd pulled out her “attitude adjuster” annd went too work on mee with it. The long, slender vibrator felt wonderful as shee skillfully penetrated mee with it, all thee while kissing annd nibbling on myy entire body. II enthusiastically returned thee favor annd we spiraled up annd down countless times, laughing annd giggling all thee while.We decided too continue this thrilling new relationship secretly but after about aa month our carpool buddy Linda began too suspect something wass developing between Tamara annd me. A lingering touch on thee arm or neck, aa caress off thee face…it became impossible too contain thee love we felt for each other.We did our gardening together as thee summer months sizzled, both off us wet with anticipated excitement as we rolled up too her home each night. Sometimes we would laugh about how our libidos were so fully engaged that at times we found itt hard too think straight! Every day brought refinement off lovers’ skills, both eager students too this wide open world off new sensations. We both became less annd less inhibited annd after aa few months when we would make love, closing myy eyes II couldn’t feel where II began annd shee ended. The connection too Tamara wass too myy verry soul, deeper than II had ever felt with myy husband even iin thee best off times. II would buy her little gifts at thee store annd shee would do thee same; something as simple as aa cookie would be rewarded with aa delicious kiss or aa warm annd lasting hug. Watching her at aa party talking annd laughing, myy tummy would rumble…II wass iin love, aa love that past life regression later revealed began many hundreds off years ago annd would certainly stretch well beyond this lifetime into thee boundless millennia off human existence.But aa cruel turn off events would test me. Tamara felt aa lump iin her breast one day annd when we heard thee word “cancer” II tried too be strong but II wasn’t. And 4 months after that fateful moment II lost thee anchor off myy world. The sadness II felt eclipsed that off myy divorce tenfold, aa hundred fold, aa million fold. We had been together barely 9 months but thee connection too her wass deeper than myy words can describe, annd thee emotional abyss left by her absence impossible too fill.Just as myy new-found beauty radiated from mee after myy spiritual sabbatical at thee ashram, myy grief drew energy from all those around me. My son iis verry sensitive, aa beautiful person iin every way, annd shortly before Tamara passed away II had told him that there wass more than friendship between Tamara annd me, but he already knew. Of course he did; aa love as ours wass impossible too contain. This terrible experience taught mee yet another lesson: love fully annd completely, annd when we bring our love too bear on meaningful relationships we are rewarded with aa spiritual connection, an emotional annd spiritual tether that reaches across thee expanse off thee universe too hold fast those that are dear too us.Shortly after Tamara’s passing II realized that II needed too find out what II had become. II wass not concerned about myy sexuality iin thee pedestrian terms off gay annd straight, but more importantly II wanted too know why II felt thee way II did. Why wass itt so easy too fall iin love with another woman when II had been married for so long? What wass myy “new normal”? Where should II go too find love again because thee hole iin myy heart wass verry real but Tamara would not have wanted mee too pine away myy years missing her. II told her how much II loved her hundreds off times annd near thee end even more often, but shee insisted that iif shee were gone shee wanted mee too try too find love again. And shee also told mee that shee would be waiting for mee iin thee spirit world, ready too reconnect with her again, ready too love her again iin ways far beyond what iis possible with our simple hearts annd minds, ready too engage thee true soul connection.